engagement

last night i had a dream that i was to be engaged to someone who i didn't really know, but i loved them.

---> To dream that you are engaged to be married, represents sexual or relationship needs. You may be trying to resolve your feelings of loneliness

dying dog/stripper pole

i'm keep on having repeating dreams of my pet dog dying. i've had it at least twice this week. last night he actually died in my dream. my dog is 13 years old and deaf.
---> If the dog is dead or dying, it represents a deterioration of your instincts. Also consider common notions associated with the word dog, such as loyalty ("man's best friend") and to be "treated like a dog".
i have no idea what that dream means



the other dream i had last night was that there was a pole dancing contest a beach. there was a very tall building that we had to climb up to then go on the pole. 2 poles were right next to each other so my twin went with me. the pole was 5 stories high so we were strapped into a harness just in case there was a mistake. my twin was doing much better than me. i just went down really slow and barely did any tricks. i didn't know which way was down and i was very confused. maybe i was scared of heights. finally my twin somehow came over to my pole and helped me. i reached into my pocket and i had a lot of money in there from people giving me (somehow haha). eventually when i got closer to the ground i stepped my game up and gave a great performance.
---> To dream that you are afraid of heights, denotes that you are striving for goals that seem beyond your reach.
---> To see or use a harness in your dream, symbolizes control and lack of freedom. Perhaps you feel that you are being held back either by your own fears or by others.

this makes sense because lately i've really wanted to move away from here. i'm bored with my everyday life. i want to just pick up and move to colorado or somewhere in europe. i'm scared to move away on my own. since my grandpa died last year my grandma has been on her own and is constantly asking my family for help (since she lives very close by). i also take her out every week for her shopping. i feel tied down by them. therefore, the harness and heights.

dead relatives in dreams

my grandpa died in october of 2006. a few months i had a dream that i was at my grandmas house (she is still alive) with my extended family. they were all standing on the stairs that head to the 2nd floor. on the bottom of the stairs was my grandpa, but he was about 3 feet tall. i got on my knees and hugged him really tight then asked why he was so short. he laughed and said everyone is this tall in heaven.
yesterday my grandma and i were talking and she said yesterday morning she woke up at 8am. she decided to go back to sleep. in that time frame she had a dream that her husband was sitting on a little childrens chair. a big chair was right next to him. he said... this isn't comfortable. my grandma said why are you sitting there. then they laughed because it was silly. she told me it was the 2nd time she had a dream about him when she went back to bed at 8 and woke up at 10.

---> To see your dead sibling, relative, or friend alive in your dream, indicates that you miss them and are trying to relive your old experiences you had with them. In trying to keep up with the pace of your daily waking life, you dreams may serve as your only outlet in coping and coming to terms with the loss of a loved one.

so my grandma and i had a dream about him with short things. he was short in my dream and he was sitting in a short chair in her dream.
---> To dream that someone or something is smaller than usual, represents feelings of insignificance, helplessness and unworthiness.

2 days ago i had a dream of my other grandma (who died in late 2004 of Alzheimer's). i was greeting some children at my front door and i heard my dead grandma shouting her own name from the room she died in. her room is the one that you would see directly down a hall (just like the picture to the left). i looked down the hall and everything in the room was white and bright and i saw the outline of her walking out (just like how they have it in movies when angles come from heaven). then she started yelling my mothers name. i gave her a hug and she didn't know who i was. it was a blizzard outside and she just walked right outside into it and vanished.
--> If the brightness is blinding, then it suggests that you are not paying attention to some new insights.

wolf dream

last night i had a dream that i was in my backyard and a mother with 3 wolf pups made a home in the corner of our fence in yard. i was sitting on our deck and they started to come up to me. they looked intimidating, but somehow i tamed them and they were acting like untrained (but friendly) dogs. one wolf in particular stood out to me. it was white with little light brown streaks on its face.---> To see a wolf in your dream, symbolizes beauty, solitude, mystery, self-confidence and pride. You are able to keep your composure in a variety of social situations and can blend in with any situation with ease and grace. You are a loner by choice. Negatively, it represents hostility and aggression. It may also reflect an uncontrollable force or situation in your life. In particular, if the wolf is white, then it signifies valor and victory. You have the ability to see the light even in your darkest hours.

weekend update

friday was full of adventure. Lynzi and i went to mt. prospect to meet sarah jessica parker. she was there promoting her clothing line. well we didn't get there early enough and since there there were a lot of people, we couldn't meet her. we took lots of pictures though. she's so pretty to look at! we were wearing high heels so we decided to give up due to our aching feet. we got back on the interstate to drive to another mall where they had a Hot Topic. we got there in plenty of time for their blaqk audio listening party. the whole album wasn't that impressive. there were lots of stupid young teenage girls there for it. they are too young for our generation. ugh... annoying. well after that we went to MAC and there was this fucking hot guy working there. he came up to us asking if we needed help and our faces all of a sudden glazed over because he was so beautiful. too bad he was gay haha. after that we drove back to our town to sit down for dinner. the rest of the night was dead. no one in town was doing anything so we just called it a night.

on saturday i slept in and in the afternoon lynzi came over to work on our scrapbook. we did our work on the floor of my room while listening to some good music. then we went to my grandmas house for dinner.

today was very boring. when i went to bed the night before my throat kinda hurt and it still did this morning so i slept in until about 2ish. i pretty much had the house to myself so i made chocolate chip pancakes while watching the patriot. after i got done watching that movie i watched the day after tomorrow. then after that i watched rock of love. that show is so funny. rodeo went home tonight. i don't like her... she had too much kid issues. well, after that show was over i made mac n' cheese and watched bend it like beckham. i miss playing soccer. man, today was super dull. well when it rains i get in those moods.

tomorrow i should be getting up early to make some calls and do some paper work concerning the taxi accident that i was involved in 2 months ago. the hospital and doc bills are adding up and i'm sure as hell not paying for them!

stick it to the man,
dawn